Last week, I was sitting at home, trying to decide what to do. However, for some reason, I didn’t feel like doing anything. All day, I had this nagging feeling, this sinking feeling in my stomach, something I couldn’t quite put my finger on… It wasn’t until late that night, when I went to write my daily entry into my journal, that I realised why.
That day was the 19th of September. Exactly four years after I logged out of Pixie Hollow for the last time.
It’s absolutely bizarre to think that it’s been so long, and it makes me realise how far I’ve come as a person since then. It’s funny to think that the closure of this virtual world was such a big turning point in my life. I lost a lot, but I gained so much more.
This year, I thought I’d do something a little different to what I’ve done on previous anniversaries. I was thinking about it, and I realised just how much playing as Rose for five years effected me as a person. Even now, I look at myself and realise how a lot of things I do reflect my time in the Hollow. I know I’ve said on several occasions that playing Pixie Hollow shaped me into the person I was today, but I’d never really stopped to think just how much…
For starters, there’s my talent, water. I remember being little and pretending I could control this element, just like my fairy could. Present day, I still feel a very strong connection to the sea. I love visiting the beach and walking along the waves, or watching waterfalls cascade down cliffs. Something about it just seems… magical, somehow. It’s not just water, either – it’s anything to do with nature. I think that’s why I really want to travel when I’m older – to see all these breathtaking natural wonders with my own eyes.
Obviously, it’s not a secret that my favourite colour is purple, and I think that came from the fact my favourite outfit for Rose was completely purple. Unfortunately, I lost all pictures of her wearing it when my computer crashed back in 2014 and I lost all but one of the screenshots I took in my final days of Pixie Hollow. However, Stella found a dres up game a while back on which I could re-create it pretty accurately:
There are other reasons I love the colour purple (I mean, it’s such a pretty colour), but I think this may be one of the main reasons, which means my phone and iPod case is purple, my school bag is purple… The list goes on. 😛
I think that some of my outfit choices for Rose also ended up carrying over to my own life as I grew older. I’ve developed a preferance of tights and a t-shirt over dresses and skirts. It’s funny to think that a combination of clothing I chose for an avatar over four years ago because I thought it looked nice actually became a style I’d come to call mine today. I actually painted a picture once that focused on how similar the styles were:
Not my best painting (what was I thinking with the yellow?!), but still like the concept of it… Which leads me to what I think the we should do to celebrate this anniversary. I challenge all the PBC bloggers to write a story in which you meet your fairy from the Hollow. I’ll do one too, and it can be about anything you like – an adventure you both go on, a dream senario… Anything you can think of! There’s no deadline, anytime in the next few weeks or so would be fine, and if you want to alter some details about yourself for personal security, for example, change your real name or give yourself red hair instead of brown, that’s perfectly okay. You don’t have to limit yourself to just writing either – you could tell your story through a video, a drawing, an edit… Anything you’d like!
So what d’you say? Would you PBC bloggers like to do this to commemorate four years since Closure? I won’t be offended if you guys want to do something else, of course – it’s only an idea. Let me know in the comments! 😉
I think Pixie Hollow will always hold a spot in my heart. I’ll never forget the freedom I felt it gave me. Playing as Rose made me discover a lot about myself I don’t think I’d ever have realised otherwise. I’ll always miss it, but not in an angry, bitter way as I once did. I look back at my time in the Hollow and remember all the amazing memories I have because of it and smile.
Thanks for reading,
– Rose MorningMist ❤
‘Everything ends, and it’s always sad. But… Everything begins again, and it’s always happy. Be happy.’
The 12th Doctor, Doctor Who